that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
i would say they are completely lacking any experience of solitude because solitude naturally breeds a right understanding, but actually these people are not that social so they are losing solitude in another way, that's to media like films and music which is certainly an issue brad warner has !
even the web i think has plenty of opportunities for misdirection
they take up zazen like it is some sort of answer, but it's not providing solitude, but rather acting as a hypnotic that reinforces the real weaknesses that disrupt what should essentially be a contemplative practice !
an interesting quote from mike cross's translation of the saundarananda, canto 14 , verses 47 to 49
who does not take to the woodland brook of solitude
is injured as though, unable to regain a track
he is walking on very thorny ground
for a seeker who is not seeing reality
standing in the tawdry playground of objects
it is no easier to rein in his mind
than to drive a foraging bull away from corn
but just as, when not fanned by the wind
a bright fire dies down
in solitary places, moments and times
we settle in infinity : o)
is
whatever
i
do
so
incredibly
zero
sum ?
actual
fact
i
learnt
years
ago
that
the
best
critique
of
a
poem
is
to
write
a
poem
in
reply !
just don't mention
that
a
child
is
vaccine
damaged
the school
system
is
retarded
or that what you eat affects your health !
just don't mention
that
a
child
is
vaccine
damaged
or the school
system
is
retarded
or that obesity is avoidable
or that what you eat affects your health !
there is another study showing that magnetic field exposure in-utero is a factor in ADHD
thought is always here and there and doing something real straightens us out !
thoughts go everywhere, proper improper, it's just the nature of them !
yeah the the acid truth about americans on the web is they are all cowards, when opposed or confronted they disappear or remove you from their sight : o )
get sick of the squawking idiots piling in trying to peck me to death : o ) !
slate have the most devious moderation i have ever seen, you post still appears to you, but nobody else can see it and you can't tell unless you look on another browser or computer !
ie it's recursurve and you would be better to read alice in wonderland and the hunting of the snark
and why lewis carroll is infinitely superior to 99.99% of philosophers
ie it's recursurve and you would be better to read alice in wonderland and the hunting of the snark
some sort
of bridging of a russia that
never
was and destroyed by the revolution
the nabakov lives
and this new internet
connected world
the full quote from speak memory towards the end of the article
“ there, in front of us, where a broken row of houses stood between us and the harbor, and where the eye encountered all sorts of stratagems, such as pale-blue and pink underwear cakewalking on a clothesline, or a lady’s bicycle and a striped cat oddly sharing a rudimentary balcony of cast iron, it was most satisfying to make out among the jumbled angles of roofs and walls, a splendid ship’s funnel, showing from behind the clothesline as something in a scrambled picture – find what the sailor has hidden – that the finder cannot unsee once it has been seen. ”
that was justa video that explained the method simply
all the other videos are very tedious
yeah, a bit poisonous
well they are stupid distortions
the illusion of life's problems having some sort of method to solve them
the usual subset categorizing itself as the superset problem !
writing , what's said should reflect the creative space it comes from!
it's not quantum, it's a distortion of quantum !
you have built something and put it forward, but the building obscures and is not the proverbial “transparent castle”
“ our findings support the view that the formation of new memories is not completed within seconds indeed our work demonstrates that activities that we are engaged in for the first few minutes after learning new information really affect how well we remember this information after a week ”
the whole problem of favouritism, is if you show favouritism, the object
favouritism
becomes
more
vulnerable
simply
from
the
distortion
of
that
extra
attention : o )
sultan moulay ismaïl and meknes
thomas pellows
account of his “internship ” at meknes as a slave of the sultan(s)
andrew writes
julian jaynes is interesting because his view point is solipsist
or at least in respect of his approach to voices
eileen replies
have to have a think about that
andrew
: o )
eileen
; o )
andrew says
yeah that philosophical/pyschological stuff is a nightmare
eileen repiles
yeah i get confused by it
lol hopless i am in that regard
andrew levin replies
that's cause it is usually voynich
eileen prunster says
reading doesnt seem to untangle it entirely for me
ok well that's a relief lol
andrew levin says
it's rubbish usually with a bit of sense
eileen replies
ok
andrew writes
that guy who did the batman movie massacre was doing a university course on that stuff
“He could still hear her screaming, high, loud, spine-chilling screams. Hans began to think that if the men raping her knew he could hear them, they would come to kill him, too, so he ran to his car and drove ”
talk to them, take them seriously
well, i'm handling that part right
“more than 20 years ago he was working with a patient who had been struggling with her voices. she came in one day and told him that a book she had been reading had helped her because it made her feel that her voices had meaning. the writer was a man named julian jaynes”
the book, “the origin of consciousness in the breakdown of the bicameral mind” ...
my reply
if you want silence , you've got tinnitus : o )
and later
“consider the tremendous value that silence offers you ”
you
suggesting
that
i stop
posting?
(ed. genpo merzel weekend retreat)
the modern ‘spiritual’ scene is just unbelievable, crap and flowery bullshit so thick you can swim in it dovetailed with personal unreality so high it's pyschotic !
of the world
is the idea
that
we
are
anything
but
the
entire
world
correct advice goes against there being some unchanging reference plane
is
none
and
therefore
there
is
no
correct advice
but
the
usual
trauma
and
nightmare
of
the
process
of
discovery
and
it's
usual
insufficiencies
and
disasters
never,
or
very
rarely
does
it
coalesce
into
anything
like
a
useful
comment
or
two
is
obviously
exterior
reference
frame !
is
obviously
exterior
reference
frame !
is
obviously
an
exterior
reference
frame
they don't understand the costs to themselves and i don't think brad is by any means as upfront as he makes out !
a
hard
life
we
can't
seem
to
get
anything
right
and
then
we
die
oh
pitta
patta
pie
the problem with movies and computer games is they glamourise violence in a way that is unrealistic, like no-one is really hurt and it all just happens again :o )
they're not saying that in syria ! (ed. 2012 uprising)
i don't think that musicans in any way would have what you would call an enlightened perspective !
: o )
the nearest would be chopin's études !
what was... was
what will be...
wait and see
what was isn't
what will be ... already was
anyone who calls police / fire services / emts suckers just doesn't get it. you're a selfish prick if you wouldn't step in and if "the money" was all that mattered. thankfully, emergency services do their job because they love what they do, not cause they love cash. ”
reply
there's nothing special about human life, in the eye of reality it is very disposable !
did you follow up the man later and ask wether he wanted to be saved !
most if not just about all suicidals really resent being “saved”, that is being brought back to the hell that was too much for them and they wanted to leave !
you are not “saving” him, but enforcing some idea you have about the world always being a worthwhile place and not the crazy sewer it mostly is !
is
suburban
infinity
it
is
not
that
the
mighty
is/are
fallen
but
utterly
crucified !
religion
a
suburban
fantasy
need
all
that
fantasy
shit
because
otherwise
what
they
say
doesn't
make
sense !
if men don't think women can get upset they should think about that !
so-called stability is simply a smooth average of instability
they
are
all
rolled
into
one
now
that's
called
have
some
fun
they
are
all
rolled
into
one
now
that's
called
a
have
some
fun
don't
know
why
talent
and
health
crucifixion
go
together
but
they
do
health problems need priority before everything else or else !
tired
and
life
is
tiring
tired
and
life
is
tiring
prattle
endlessly
about
love
endlessly : o )
above quote by frederick nietzsche
my
reply
“ a great writer possesses not only his own spirit but also those across the ages whom he reads! ”
i think the fundamental mistake you can make is to volunteer your life into something
that is not really worth it !
to this
madness i think
we die as confused as
we came.
the
sanity
punch
it
out
a
s
insanity
is
that
some
sort
of
method?
i'm trying to say we all are stupid and clever by turns and starts and that's the way it is
some ideal about us only ever being clever or even only stupid is very very unrealistic
function in life is paring our being stupid from where we are clever and this sorts the schizo's from those who function and one has to be very careful not to throw away too much time on those who don't function except in their ability to leach your time and energy
coping with being hurt as i pointed out to him, is “enlightenment ”
it's just being intelligent and using what hurts as a pointer to what needs looking at !
A. and J. have terminal issues in this area
they simply cannot have any rest and react in a narrow way if hurt, tho i think A. is doing better at that now
just looking at the larger picture is a simple way of getting some sense
a lot of times if something happens that hurts us, it's often also very much to our advantage that it has happened
if we react narrowly we react against it and try to reverse it
if we take the broader view we go with the flow and amplify the beneficial aspects
all my life has been hurt, rejection etc
i have learnt to use it
it's not an issue, i would only bring your hurting me to your attention where it was productive to look at
so much of life is water under the bridge, if you try and dam it, it just makes more trouble !
what is called a socratic dialogue is two people talking to illustrate a point
she
have
learnt ?
she
won't
do
it
again
but
beyond
abit
of
aglimmer
she
won't
understand
or
accept
she
was
conned !
made
of
day
dreams
and
tangerines
are
sour !
made
of
day
dreams
and
made
of
day
dreams
and
tangerines
are
sour !
they
never
seem
to
get
they're
not
their
children
they
never
seem
to
get
they're
not
their
children
obsidian
eyes
are
there
in
the
dream
time
don't
let
that
go
.
.
rather sad in a way i feel (for me too) to recognize talent but not possess
u yearn to b able to but can't can only see it in others and wish u could too
it's like being very lightly sprinkled with something but missing out cos ur on the edge of it
my
reply
it's not simply being lightly sprinkled, but we need to work to bear fruit so to speak
like J. for instance, no work in the right direction
and A. is more than sprinkled but again she shyes off the fundamentals
you just keep writing and it's a skill and mindset that seems to mutate in a positive direction : o )
however our writing is only as good as our brains
you really have to look at effective dietary changes and supplementation as per my compendium and BCD diet
there's quite a bit you can do
like abit of fish oil can help and some midday summer sun on the skin !
all written up in this website
i am in australia, but i have lived in the usa for a short while and really the way your culture has the world's worst health yet religiously worships medicine like it is some sort of answer is A S T O U N D I N G
the above a reply to, which is quite a good post on what it takes to be a commercially successful writer
picasso and dali were superb marketers
van gogh was an “anti marketer” : o )
like people getting angsted over my not using capitals or full stops which is the usual
you
feel
like
it's
abit
hard
some
of
the
time
all
of
the
time
you
feel
like
it's
abit
hard
some
of
the
time
all
of
the
time
being moonlight
my
hand
only
passes
through
her
: o )
my
hand
only
passes
through
her
: o )
we can be more than visitors to that space : o )
oceans
and
stars
can
equal
this
this
is
my
heart
even poems have their limits
my reply
really good poems like both our nulls don't
they always are abit new each time they are looked at
but if you look at people like dogen and hakuin, they were writers and artists and it's the artistic process of writing that develops (except for fred and some like him who fight tooth, claw and nail against any realisation of insufficiency)
so actually the blog writing and commenting, if you are open to it, will do way more for you that the hypnotic nightmare of zazen !
fred as amatter of interest do you meditate?
i am wondering what you do to do screw yourself up, i mean, you don't even slightly seem to have got what its about, in fact the opposite, so what you do is of interest !
fred, unlike you i rest in infinity or buddha in the quality of my writing
one of my best pieces
doesn't that mean anything to you?
i was there, it's my life experience and observation and i have walked that stream !
you snipe puerilities from the side line and use phoney words like “friend ”
i'm here and here and here and here............. and not here........... and dead : o )
U
L
L
not
accepted
not
rejected
not
having
to
start
not
having
to
finish
not
having
to
go
on
N
U
L
L
not
accepted
not
rejected
not
having
to
finish
not
having
to
go
on
the chicken
or
the
eggs?
cells !
(ed. she brings her palm up to her face )
jane godley is “good” value : o )
how the world has changed !
that is, he burnt what would have been one of the great works of world literature
so it's like a golden rule to never destroy what you write because feelings are fickle
i think all people get miffed when they find the world's not like they think it is
so i think that brad's narcissism has led him his present unproductive situation where being a zen master meets his need to be a sort of cynosure or “elevated person”
it's interesting that all his years of zazen haven't given him any insight into this or improved his life functionality !
the number one area where people in zen always GO WRONG is they ignore literature and what is across the ages like emily dickinson, heraclitus, sappho, nietzsche etc etc
dogen as i have said is very uneven and if you hitch your wagon to a half lighted schizophrenic star ....
i'm sorta the opposite, i piss my time away helping arseholes who just about always kick me in the face with their renewed strength
basically i think all you can do is see what you are like and try to avoid the pitfalls : o)
man i go in straight line for a million miles and it's very penal but what i find is that if i continue to the very end i get in some place that really gives strong insight and is really very different like the proverbial mountainpeak
is
all
the
effort
we have to put into moving a bit ahead
and then we get old
a
n
d
d
i
e
a
n
y
w
a
y !
what really upset me about zen is the way people who are clueless as to what it is about pretend to know what they are talking about and that includes just about all so called zen masters !
then they went
v
e
r
y
w
ro
n
g
and it was like this
f
o
r
q
u
i
t
e
a
w
h
i
l
e
and they became very
right
again
but
they
were
never
really
right
again
because
they
had
been
so
wrong
before
this
is
something
to
do
with
life
and
god
things were/went right
then they went
v
e
r
y
w
ro
n
g
and it was like this
f
o
r
q
u
i
t
e
a
w
h
i
l
e
and they became very
right
again
but
they
were
never
really
right
again
because
they
had
been
so
wrong
before
this
is
something
to
do
with
life
and
god
everything doesn't have to be a complete disaster !
a
complete
disaster !
imagine sitting there waiting to be shot !
and the cheering crowds when you die !?
and there's mad and functional
and
then
supremely
mad but true
and there's mad and functional
and
then
supremely
mad but true
the
impossible
possible
the way he was togged up as monk and probably was indoors more than most monks wouldn't have helped either !
catherine of sienna is another religious whose entry into the religious life and the very masking effect of sun on the skin of those habits in fact killed her
she starved herself to death and had become extremely depressed
very relaxing, one of the few pieces of piano music i actually have enjoyed, full of swaying lyrical rythms and echoes : o )
i don't know why?
( ed. looking for a larger pic ! “ la belle isle ” )
now that is a very good painting about women !
wether it's a poem or a painting it's the same thing, an astute and objective statement about the nature of the female
good line by donna williams
the hello poets do love the over emotional expression it seems
my reply
it's autistic i think, they build what's not there in its entirety !
eileen replies
yeah, altars to emotion : o )
i go into discussing ideas about “the right sun”
get some whole body solar noon sun (high solar alititude) over the next months or months (ed. mid summer)
even a minute a day is something
test it, do you feel better, are the joints better etc !
solar noon is when the sun is at the highest in the sky
summer solar noon sun is really good for the joints
there is the cancer risk, you have to balance things up a bit, mainly i avoid going pink at all
and there is my advice on removing moles
and of course the rest of the compendium has a strong anti-cancer effect, but i suspect you lot prefer to die of cardiovascular and the other metabolic issues that come in part from no sun like diabetes etc
but you lot are all medical cultists aren't you?
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khru said...
i'll try it...the sun in hawaii will burn the hell out of you in the summer. i've never had a sunburn in my mouth but we'll see.
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my replies:
a solar elevation (height of the sun above the horizon) of about 67° and stratospheric ozone of 250-275 dobson is really the minimum for good skin D sun.
74° and above is the really good stuff, at that height it may even get enough into the skin blood to kill a few viruses and provide an 'innoculation' or some dead viruses in the blood so the immune system can see them as some viruses seem to have good stealth, especially with biofilm
i feel the higher angles are better but for instance the hawaiian midsummer sun at its maximum height (84°!) might be a bit much for white skins, however i haven't had much experience with these very high sun angles, maybe short intense tropical sun level exposure is beneficial, maybe not, one has to experiment !
you are looking for gains in mood and health (eg. less inflammation and better joints, better mental flexibility, reduced non- skin cancer risk etc.) and balancing that against increased skin cancer risk
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if you have significantly smoked tobacco or pot you will have a considerably higher mouth cancer risk, did you know one joint has the carciogenicity of 20 cigarettes!
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khru said...
ok so i let the direct sunlight shine into my open mouth. it was hot but i became used to it. at around minute four, bright, white lights suddenly shot out of both my ears as well as my anus.
should i be worried?
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my reply:
on mars this is quite normal, but here it means death by suicide between 40 and 55
